The snails and earthworms are gone. Exhaustion is the name of the game. I think it’s time to ask for outside help . . . ~Jean
Dear Blog Family and Friends,
I awakened early this morning to another gray/yellow-sky, a day that instead at this time of year should be sunny with a brilliant blue sky and lots of puff clouds, but which is now destroyed by chemtrails and their accompanying haze.
I remembered my last view of’ a snail – yes only one snail – which showed itself to be an ugly orangey/yellow color. Snails used to be all over my sidewalk every morning after the dampness of the just-before-dawn watering. For some reason as I went out early to walk my dogs I always found myself picking them up and putting them back on the grass.
All the snails are gone now — and most people haven’t even noticed.
Today, I realized that the earthworms that were all over the sidewalks after a rain no longer show themselves. I guess they’re gone, too.
The earth, it seems, is slowly being destroyed. That fact hit me personally today.
And I feel profound sorrow.
It’s not that we haven’t tried, because we have. We are, a large number of us, trying by signing petitions, marching, sharing info on the internet, reading until we are blue in the face, informing ourselves as best we can, meditating in groups of all sorts, and still nothing changes.
Nothing.
It only gets worse.
As a badly abused person, who had to rebirth myself and start over from scratch, I know what the effort to get better and change our lives requires, and it is a tough, tough path to walk. How many of us even have the luxury to consider doing so? We are without jobs, without resources, often feeling very much isolated and alone. If it were all our fault, that might be different, but it hasn’t been. We are fighting an enemy who for many centuries has studied the situation and calculated exactly what it will take to subdue us.
No matter how hard we continue to try, nothing changes. We think we’ve had a bit of success, and the same problems only show up elsewhere.
Every day they continue to implement their murderous plans.
As an abused person, I’m a master at ‘putting up with’ and ‘stuffing it’, but there comes a time when this can lead to our undoing, even to our death. We ‘put up with’ beyond the point of no return. As abused people, and I think that is a category into which most people on this planet fit, we know how to survive — just a little bit longer. More than once as I healed I came close to dying, simply because I was holding on when I should have been asking for help.
For myself, I’ve now reached that point again. While we all certainly need to continue trying, I also think it’s time to change our tune here, so now instead of saying that this is our karma and we can/must/will do this ourselves, I’m asking for help from the Field/Universe/God/Source/Mother Earth-Father Sun, or whatever you want to call that which is behind this change in paradigm. I’ve reached the point where I believe the only way we can get through this is with some outside help.
I believe we have amply demonstrated that we are trying the best we can, that we are doing all that we can do — even those of us who are not awake to the larger picture — to help ourselves, to rid ourselves of this scourge.
So, now, I’m putting out a genuine plea to the benevolent power in which I totally believe for some help, for support, even for deliverance from this evil that pervades our lives, and if you can, I’m asking you to join me.
Right now, Putin is being painted in the MSM as totally evil, when he is the only one who essentially is preventing WWIII. The thugs running our world are continuing to create total chaos and literal hell for humanity all over the planet. While front-and-center it continues to be Ukraine and Syria and Iran, now Nigeria — and Venezuela are coming into the picture. The Far East is being inflamed. I see no signs that it will ever stop. Who and what country will be next?
How can we as citizens possibly contain them? How? We are told (symbolically) not to shop the box stores, or do anything that gives the cabal life, but let’s be honest – at the end of a pay period, ready to drop, trying to manage a family and lives that have seriously gone awry, is this realistic? Can we afford the prices to eat organic? Can we even afford the local mom-and-pop stores? Do we even have the time and energy (read ‘real’ money) to run around and do these things?
Three weeks ago, my own body simply started shutting down and dying from pure exhaustion and stress. I could hardly walk or sleep. For eighteen years, I didn’t sleep properly because I didn’t feel safe. I found this was the result of my primal memory of conception into a toxic womb that didn’t want me and sought to expel me, an experience which created in me an unconscious sense of almost eternal vigilance in order that at all costs I survive. My quantum bio-feedback doctor helped me discover and remove this very deep unconscious cellular memory of a lifetime of stress so that finally I can begin to sleep, rest, and heal. A gifted, modern-day shaman, I will forever be grateful to her.
There were days, though, in these last couple weeks when I didn’t think I could walk another step, but because of my blog and because of two loving dogs who are new in my life, I kept going. I was told I need to give myself six weeks to fully recover, and I can only write this today because I feel like I’m at last over the hump.
I share this with you, because this morning when I awakened in my own personal relief and release from stress, I realized the stress we are all under and that it is time, I think, that we turn to God/Source/Creator and ask for help. We have tried our best, and I think we need outside help, or I fear for our success.
A sign of a healthy person is his/her ability to admit they need help.
If you agree with me, will you leave a very brief comment — just one sentence — here? I think a public statement is required. No need to sign your name. I believe we will be heard.
Love and hugs,
~Jean